Love This Bastard

Someone recently descirbed him as an "honest asshole,"

and my only reply was "just how I like my men."

1920-1994

Charles Bukowski



I eat images for breakfast ...

 



My Painful Joy

I'm always intrigued by questions that I know I'll never have answers to. Odd, you think? Yes. Why, you ask? I don't wish to know, remember I'm intrigued by questions I know I'll never have answers to.

Where am I going with this ... one word & one person: Haifiz

 

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Loft Living

"Dreams don't always have to exist when the sun is down and your eyes are shut" - Alex Gaskarth

Current time: 11:03 a.m. and I am dreaming of a loft, with rusty asscents, tons of character and a balacony with endless lights to meet the eye.

The Monsters Aren't Under The Bed Anymore

Let's get real. No, not the "stop talking behind my back" type of real nor the "you're a hater, be real" type either. Let's get real and face the real-ities of fear. How often do you get scared? What do you get scared of? How much do these fears impact your life?

 I find it far too unfortunate that we (and by "we" I mean mostly ME) live our lives with even a nano particle of fear. Granted, whether unfortunate or not it is in fact a well established part of every one's daily existence. So now that we've gotten quite "real" about the fact that we all, somehow fear something, let's dissect our fears: 

Is it the dark we fear? ... or is it our lack of ability to see what's in the dark?

Is it heights we fear? … or is it the thought that we may fall and not land safety?

Is it people we fear? … or the actions that they are capable of?

Is it failure we fear? … or the agony of judgement?

The more and more you think about it, fear is only a manifested crutch created by you and reinforced by outside sources. I Say, find gems in the dark, fall and brag about your scars, help people become capable of good as opposed to evil and if you're going to be judged, make sure you're wearing your best heels!

Who needs a kitchen?

The most disorganized of girls would still keep her clothes, shoes and accessories organized if given sufficient space for it. This will be mine, even if it means convertting my kitchen into my closet and my coat closet into my kitchen. After all, it only takes a microwave to make a box of mac n' cheese! I pity the lad that marries me.

And of course the most famous closet of all time, Ms. Carrie Bradshaw pre-marriage to Big

if only they would allow it to become a monument and charge us a pair of Manolo Blahnik's to visit and awe for a few thousand minutes .. hey, a girl is entitled to her dreams, ok!

A Rewarding & Selfish Relationship

For 3 months now I've had a friendship bracelet on. Many people have asked me if it's to represent a friendship with a longtime childhood friend, and every time I've been super, super, uber, duber anxious to respond with "no." Now you wonder why? Well, I suppose my eagerness stems from the fact that my friendship with my best friend (forced to use that word for lack of a better one) is so rock solid that I like giving people that element of surprise.

Now, the more important reason is because I picked up that friendship bracelet, tied it around my own wrist and promised myself that it was to represent the relationship I have with myself. After all, we come in alone and we leave alone. Truth be told, I try my best to live my life according to what my ultimate opinion of myself would be based on my actions. If I'm not going to be happy with myself after doing something, I try not to do it and vice versa. Some of us get sucked into reacting maliciously because we get tired of what the world exerts on us, but keep in mind: what people do to you is their karma, how you react may or may not be yours.

Just be proud of what you do, if you can't be proud of it, don't not only do it, but don't even associate with it.

It's quite simple. Oh, and remember, what you think of yourself is what matters the most when the sun sets and the moon shines. What hour the clock reads is irrelevant because it is unavoidable that it's the hour you find yourself ready to put your head on that fluffy pillow and as cliche as it may be, it couldn't be more of a fact that, "there is no pillow softer than a clear conscious."  

Fairy Tales Lie

"For all those men who believe there’s no reason to buy the cow when you can get the milk for free…Currently 80% of women are against marriage, too, as they have wised up to the fact that for 7 ounces of sausage it’s not worth buying the whole pig. ”

FACTS, kinda

:)

Oh, hello!

Lately, I've been noticing with conversation that many of my loved ones have been b*tching & complaining (at times, myself included). So it dawned on me, that as humans we need trivial reminders of our blessings. If we didn't see others stop at a red light as a prompt, we'd sure enough eventually forget red meant stop (despite this, some people still forget). My ramblings have a point, and it is that, I'd love to give everyone tiny reminders that usually help make my problems seem less problematic. We’ll just call it "Oh, hello" since we sometimes need a jolt in order to greet these tiny receivers in our brains that we oh so often neglect.