Sonder

It always gets better ...

I think one of my favorite feelings is laughing with someone and realizing half way through how much you enjoy them and their existence.

I was quiet, not blind

Lusting for you, fall

SELFISH: the only thing you need to know about 'it' is how to spell 'it'

Listen and listen well, to the best of our knowledge we are only going to be on this planet once. This is your shot, this is your life, this is your ONE in ONE and NONE to come. In order to soak up as much as possible from this 'one' life we have been given, I suggest you make a decent effort to become the following: SELFISH. Before you peg me as a lunatic (which wouldn't be far from the truth), I'll explain why below. Keep in mind this is coming from someone who has been plagued by being, for the most part, very selfless.

self·ish

adjective

1. 1.

   (of a person, action, or motive) lacking consideration for others; concerned chiefly with one's own personal profit or pleasure.

   "I joined them for selfish reasons"

   synonyms:

   egocentric, egotistic, egotistical, egomaniacal, self-centered, self-absorbed, self-obsessed, self-seeking, self-serving, wrapped up in oneself; More

   
   

So, we've all come across that a**hole who just doesn't give a flying fu*k about anyone but him/herself. I mean if you haven't then you really need to move to a big city. In LA everyone is looking out for their own and if you aren't, you're going to be left picking up pieces from someone else, who doesn't even know they left any behind. I use to think being selfish was the ugliest trait next to lacking humbleness, but in recent experiences, I've realized this is the only way to get ahead in life, whether it be with your education, career and/or relationships. The problem with the term selfish is that people begin to think it means deceiving, hurting and betraying others. Although, this can be the case, it doesn't have to be. If you're a decent human being to begin with you are going to be able to easily identify when you're just being a sh*tty person and when you're acting in the favor of this ONE life you've been given. No one owes you anything and with the same token, YOU owe no one anything. You can think I'm just a jaded and cynical and you possibly are right, but at the end of the day, today's date is September 3, 2015 and this is the society we are living in. A kind of society that requires this trait to be formulated, practiced and mastered in order to not just survive but to thrive. Darwin knew what he was talking about, even if I appear as thought I don't.  

4:39 AM

It's been a long time since I felt like I could write. Well, at least write something I thought I could share. As I scrolled through the archives of my private thoughts and scattered words, I realized that while most of the time I was sharing my writings because I wrote them other times I was writing them to share them. In the midst of that simple realization, I was immediately disappointed.

It felt like when my reasons for writing became unclear, I decided to stay away from words and focus on photographs. When the images began to blur and my eyes felt heavy, I relied on the sound of music and when my favorite artists were scarce in effect, I accepted silence. What I did not anticipate was the pleasure I would reap from this silence. With the absence of words, my feelings felt magnified. Feelings not allowed to speak have become my favorite. I began to believe that the only logic in verbalizing our feelings are to be able to share them. How useless to spend energy wasting words on visitors. After all, no matter how much you share your feelings by using your words and no matter how redundant your feelings and your words appear to be, at the end of the day they are fleeting, just like we'd hope most house guests would be.

If I should call you up, invest a dime ...

Everything has a price, if you're wondering what it is, just look at how you feel. There isn't a single moment both significant or mundane that has let you go without taking something from you.

New York City, Always a Good Idea

I'm no expert, but ...

For beginners, I've never been married, so I may have zero to negative zero authority to comment on such a matter as marriage, but I will anyways. We've all seen friends and family get engaged, married and then divorced. Some we expected, others not so much, nonetheless whether predicted by our extraterrestrial powers or not, we imagine it to suck. Now, I'm sure everyone has a theory or ten for why things crumbled the way they crumbled, and every marriage (I assume) is significantly different, but it dawned on me that...

ROCKET SHIP POPSICLE'S ROCK

Patiently Waiting

Goals

I AM A W.I.P.

WORK IN PROGRESS